Having someone to talk to every night is actually kind of nice.

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Staying up late talking about pointless things in life and laughing about the most random things. Struggling to stay up late but not letting them know how tired you are just to stay on the phone with them, until eventually one of you falls asleep. Just the feeling of having company and having someone to share your late night thoughts with. These conversations are the most unforgettable.

♥

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that’s when you know it’s love :”)

Keep this in mind, one day, there’s going to be a guy who’s going to love you, your body, your smile, the way you walk, the way you talk, he’s going to love you. And you’re going to feel confident and on top of the world. One day, you won’t feel insecure because you have someone who loves you for who you are. And I think that’s when you know its love. When instead of feeling like you have to hide your flaws, and feel insecure and embarrassed, you feel unashamed, free, secure, safe, proud, happy, and confident. You feel loved.

A mother Hamster’s Love ♥

Once there was this hamster who touched my life :) her name came from my favorite flavor of superstix *giggles* ;) It’s not chocolate, either pandan; no no, not cheese… but yes, it’s fruity! :D from tutti frutti :3 nam nam… haha.. :D nakakagutom :>

her partner was named Ruzly :)) It’s a combination of names, not to mention who’s who :> then there was Ruzly the second and Ruzly the third… XD but let’s focus on Fruity ;)

Few months ago, my mom and dad surprised us with a he and she hamsters :3 The female’s brown and white while he was white and gray :3 They were capsulated in a blue cage with a running toy, or whatever they call it… It looks like this:

They were soooo adorable that they give me butterflies in my stomach :”> 

The time came when Fruity had a watermelon on her womb XD

At first, I thought she’s just full, but after a week, she labored three baby hamhams :3 awww…*feeling ko ako yung nanganak sa sobrang tuwa ko XD* lol.

Her babies were like these:  First time kong makakita ng baby hamhams kaya hindi ko mai-explain yung feeling… feeling ko talaga ako yung nanganak sa tuwa ko. :D We don’t know what to do so we separated Ruzly (her partner) to another cage and we separated the babies from Fruity. Tinapatan pa namin ng lamp, kunyari nasa incubator… XD after three days, namatay yung baby hamhams… o.O mukang ewan lang eh, sa excitement namin, di namin naalalang kelangang i-feed ng mother hamham yung babies nya… haaaay, ayun, nailibing tuloy ng wala sa oras.. T^T

But wait! There’s MORE! dahil nawala si Ruzly the first (tumakas) bumili kami ng bagong male hamster, kulay brown; I named it Ruzly the second :3 bago makatakas si Ruzly the second, Fruity got preggy! AGAIN. :D (yes, naka-escape nanaman si Ruzly; ang malas lang siguro nung pangalang binigay ko… di siguro bagay yung combination namin XD) 
 

Fruity labored six adorable baby hamhams :3 and yes, we were surprised! By that time, we didn’t separate the babies. Whenever I came home from school, I stare at them to reminisce the three baby hamhams who passed away. sayang :( I’m not able to capture even a single photo of them. *sighs* 

One day, I woke up at around 5:30 in the morning to check on them. I was startled when I saw army of ants covering their cage! What’s worse is that I saw Fruity’s not moving! :O Nakadapa na sya dun sa mga babies nya, she’s trying to protect them… ;-( and it broke my heart when I saw that no one survived among all of her babies T^T geez, tears streamed down from my eyes when I saw Fruity’s barely breathing… ramdam ko yung sakit at paghihirap nya :O nanginginig pa ko habang hinahawakan ko s’ya (aw gosh, naluluha tuloy ako habang nagttype :<)

Una kong kinuha si Fruity sa cage… she’s indisposed. T^T hindi na nya maigalaw yung mga paa nya… parang syang nawalan ng buto kaya nakadapa na s’ya at nakadipa yung mga paa’t kamay nya; hindi na nya maibuka yung bibig nya T.T kita ko sa mukha nya na hirap na hirap na sya… parang sinasabi nya sakin na “anong ginawa kong masama para kunin nila sakin ang mga anak ko? ;-( ”  …sa sobrang galit ko, simula non, kinurse ko na ang mga langgam na pula T^T

Kita ko sa mga mata nya na maluha-luha pa by that time at nangungusap na gusto pa nyang lumakas;gusto pa nyang magpagaling para makabalik dun sa masayang buhay nya dati… gusto pa n’yang mabuhay.

para syang robot na nawalan ng battery… hindi na tlga s’ya makagalaw at lagi syang nakadapa; na-paralyze yung buo nyang katawan gawa ng rabies ng mga langgam. (take note, malalaking-pulang-langgam) Can you imagine that? punong-puno ng langgam yung paa nya :O dali-dali kong tinanggal yung mga langgam isa-isa kase nakakakagat dun sa paws nya :(( kung tayo nga anlaki-laki nating tao, halos mamilipit sa sakit ng kagat ng langgam… s’ya pa kaya? …basag na basag ako habang nararamdaman ko na bawat langgam na natatanggal ko sa maliit nyang paa, kahit patay na, nakakagat parin sa kanya . ;-(

Based on her condition, hindi na nya kakayanin; mahihirapan na s’yang mabuhay… but, guess what? She’s alive! pero durog na durog parin ako, kasi everyday, she’s getting weaker.. kaya triniple ko yung pag-aalaga ko sa kanya.

Dahil hindi na nya maibuka yung bibig nya, ako nalang nagbubuka… sinusubuan ko sya ng milk and sugar para lumakas s’ya.. kahit vitamins pinapainom ko sa kanya. Hinihimas-himas ko s’ya palagi… dinadama ko yung heartbeat n’ya; minamassage ko yung legs n’ya dahil nagbabakasakali akong makakalakad pa s’ya; pinapahiran ko ng bulak yung katawan n’ya para linisin s’ya… kinakausap ko s’ya na magpalakas s’ya kasi andito lang ako para sakanya… kinakantahan ko s’ya… kinekwentuhan ko s’ya… kasama s’ya palagi sa prayers ko… lahat ng alam kong method para gumaling s’ya ginawa ko na.

Those things cycled continually for two weeks; kahit konting pagod, hindi ko naramdaman… para sa kanya yun eh. Gusto kong mabuhay pa s’ya and I’m glad na pinakinggan n’ya yung wish ko sa kanya.

I don’t know if I would be happy ‘cause she’s alive, pero nakikita ko naman sya’ng naghihirap T^T Parang ako yung nawalan ng mga anak…  parang ako yung coma… parang ako yung unti-unting namamatay…

Nakakaubos ng luha.

Then one day, I came home from school with dudez Phia, pinakita ko sa kanya yung condition ni Fruity, kasi alam nya kung pano ako nalulungkot sa nangyari…

buhat at hinihimas himas ko pa si Fruity nung mga time na yon, kinakausap ko din s’ya… tapos pinatong ko s’ya sa table, then, nagkwentuhan na kami ni dudez…

After several minutes, pagtingin ko sa kanya, she’s not breathing anymore :O Paghipo ko sa kanya, matigas na s’ya. I was about to burst into tears when my friend told me not to.

Yung emotion from my heart, napunta sa throat ko… ang hirap sa pakiramdam T^T I can’t even stop it… so tears streamed down to my cheeks. Maybe I’m supposed to be thankful, kasi tapos na yung paghihirap n’ya diba?

Pero… hindi n’ya nagawang mabuhay kahit gustung-gusto n’ya pa. Nanghina na siguro yung katawan n’ya, hindi na n’ya kinaya…

Siguro, inintay n’ya lang talaga akong umuwi galing sa school bago s’ya nagpaalam. T.T

;-(  Almost two weeks syang coma, sayang yung paghihirap n’ya kasi hindi s’ya nakasurvive… 

but she did show me what’s the true meaning of Parenthood. Pinakita n’ya na kahit maliit lang sila, kasing laki din ng puso natin yung puso nila…

Marami s’yang tinuro sakin. Indeed, she’s so brave and strong; and now, I knew how mother hamsters love. ♥

Dear baby Fruity, I know you’re still with me :) ♥ I Idolize you. You’ll always be remembered. :*

Love,

Rezzia

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That moment when you’ve smiled so much that your cheeks hurt

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So you try to rub them to make them stop hurting

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Spaghetti for a little friend.

this is the cutest thing ever.

awwwww :”> SOOOO CUTE! :”> the hamster looks like fruity! my hamster :\

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